Everyone says......Force out Love and Compassion even if you don't want to!.....and question marks start haunting me.....Why? Till when?.....and I always end up being the confused girl that I have always been. I feel there are 2 beings that exist within me all the time. They are opposite to each other and always end up splitting me into two halves. Probably they are the HEART and the MIND!......they possibly do not co-exist.
Life, as usual, is very clueless. Although I move like a well-tuned machine day in and out, there are times, when I want to come out of that.......and be just ME! These days I retrospect a lot; probably age is what makes that happen. When I do that, it seems life could have been different if......this would not have happened...etc, etc..! As the spiritual experts put it like, this is what my 'karma' has in store for me. I cannot change it even if I want to.
So, as days pass by, everyday seems like a battle.......against so many odds, people's indifference, criticisms and allegations......there is still hope! All this seems like a big bad dream......and one day, my eyes will wake up to a beautiful world and everything shall be alright.
